ILUVTN

Well when I wrote the contribution for "rough couple of months" little did I know there was another funeral in the future.

Today is Tuesday May 15. Mom called me on Friday morning and left a msg for me to call her as soon as possible. I called and she told me that my sister in law (Alan's wife) had passed away the night before. I lost it. I was so thinking of my brother. She had been sick for about 3 years. She was a tiny person anyway but about 2 years ago she started losing weight really bad. We don't know what really happened. They didn't do an autopisy on her. Of course I am thinking of Alan, wishing that he didn't have to go through this, wanting to protect him (the big sister, little brother syndrome). Of course I know that the only thing I can do is be there for him.

It is going to tear me up to leave him today. I did tell him yesterday that if he needed me to call anytime. I am hoping to get him up north for a weekend so he can get away from everything and just chill out.

He told me that he would need me to come home to help him clean out her clothes. His father in law is already pushing him to sell the house. Mom, Dad and I have told him not to make any decisions right now, to take his time.

We will see what tomorrow and the next couple of weeks bring.