Friday, October 15, 2004
Oct 15! Oh my!
I can't believe it is Oct 15 already. Time has flown by. Halloween is in 2 weeks...Thanksgiving is coming fast and Christmas will be here before I know it.
It's time for the trip to Tennessee. I am torn about going down this weekend. It is going to really hurt when we leave on Sunday to come back to Illinois. I told Jim how I was feeling this morning. He called a little later trying to cheer me up. I told him that it would take me a while to get use to being back up here again. He told me that Nashville was only 2 1/2 hours closer than we are now. I told him that it is the little things that I am missing. He says he understands. I certainly hope he does.
Its not that I don't want to go down...I really do. Its the leaving part that hurts. I see what I am missing and I see what I could have had. Jim tells me to be happy about what we do have. I am trying I really am. It is just really hard right now. I loved being close to family. I was looking so forward to being closer to my newphews in Atlanta. I am missing my best friend really bad right now. I have made some new friends...they are the greatest. I don't think that I would have made it this long if it weren't for them.
I just need to quit feeling sorry for myself and enjoy what I do have. Give me a couple of more months...I have a great job, a great house, a great husband, great puppies, great neighbors...I should be estatic...well I am not. I have never been this down before. I wonder if it has anything to do with Jim being in the dumps. Do you think that I have caught whatever he had?
Enough, enough...I got to get cheery again. ;( Maybe I am just tired and need to take a weekend to do absolutely nothing. I can't do that...I have way too much stuff to do when I am home. I will sit down to rest and then feel guilty about sitting...I have to quit whaling about my life. I agreed to come back, so I have to make the best of it.
I promise to try my best!
It's time for the trip to Tennessee. I am torn about going down this weekend. It is going to really hurt when we leave on Sunday to come back to Illinois. I told Jim how I was feeling this morning. He called a little later trying to cheer me up. I told him that it would take me a while to get use to being back up here again. He told me that Nashville was only 2 1/2 hours closer than we are now. I told him that it is the little things that I am missing. He says he understands. I certainly hope he does.
Its not that I don't want to go down...I really do. Its the leaving part that hurts. I see what I am missing and I see what I could have had. Jim tells me to be happy about what we do have. I am trying I really am. It is just really hard right now. I loved being close to family. I was looking so forward to being closer to my newphews in Atlanta. I am missing my best friend really bad right now. I have made some new friends...they are the greatest. I don't think that I would have made it this long if it weren't for them.
I just need to quit feeling sorry for myself and enjoy what I do have. Give me a couple of more months...I have a great job, a great house, a great husband, great puppies, great neighbors...I should be estatic...well I am not. I have never been this down before. I wonder if it has anything to do with Jim being in the dumps. Do you think that I have caught whatever he had?
Enough, enough...I got to get cheery again. ;( Maybe I am just tired and need to take a weekend to do absolutely nothing. I can't do that...I have way too much stuff to do when I am home. I will sit down to rest and then feel guilty about sitting...I have to quit whaling about my life. I agreed to come back, so I have to make the best of it.
I promise to try my best!
# posted by Beth Alvis @ 3:34 PM 
